In my last post, I said I have had it. It wasn’t about the computer’s performance so much, as it was my own ill-conceived ideas of daily responsibilities to write something I felt would be entertaining, to myself first, then others. Overwhelmed by the mere fact of my inability to keep up with my commitment to write daily for the daily challenge, I simply quit altogether.
It seems to me that this is occurring with great frequency lately. Not just in my writing, but also other things, like my art work. When I feel these panicking pressures, I shut down. I still function, however, not whole soul functioning. I could write, but I would not produce the kind of writing I wish to promote.
My Doctor told me to write anyway when I am feeling this funk. I want to write funny, poignant, thought-provoking stories. I think I am failing when I can’t. She said I would be surprised how many others might feel the same. I know I’m not unique in my mental illness, but when those feelings strike, I think I am alone. I am alone, no matter how many others might be in the same circumstance.
If you feel anything like this, please post a comment. Tell me about your difficulties, show me I am really not alone. If nothing else, you can just say I have some nerve tagging this post with the postaday2011 challenge after missing so many daily post. (That last sentence is supposed to make you laugh)